The soundscapes of highway 183

Soundscapes of the stars as your sleeping in your car. There’s this concept in the humanities called reflexivity. It’s essentially the idea that our lived experiences can define our epistemologies and ontologies: So, what does it mean to sleep in a car? The rushing of the highway, the scratching of Velcro on windows and rustlingContinue reading “The soundscapes of highway 183”

Momma Sunshine and her Son Starlight

She was going out with a firefighter, but he burned more than he put out. He said I’m done. She said, love, you said I was your one? Later on that day. She found out she got a baby on the way. So she calls up her momma and says what do I do. IContinue reading “Momma Sunshine and her Son Starlight”

Hated girl within the mirror

Hated girlwithin the mirrorher hair too blondeAnd breasts too smallHer face so sullen Emaciated figurineStaring back into the darknesswondering at the sight of thee. Where is your love for her? God gave you her body to protect and love. Yet, you tear her limb from limb? You try to kill her energy. An infection toContinue reading “Hated girl within the mirror”

A prayer for a blog

A Book Of Poems, Prayers, And PainTestimony Without Last name Elements Seen And HeardSome Days Feeling Much, And Some Days Numb.One Day let this blog be a book for The Broken-HeartedLet This Pain, These Petals, This Rain, thorns, lyrics and Quizzical Psalms Sing For Themselves.Nameless And Maybe Among these Scribbles And Stray Notes. You mayContinue reading “A prayer for a blog”

Interpretations of translations

When my mind is blue…. I paint lilies with the dew. In the chaos of my heart, I draw songs out of the midst. Resonant and resounding. Upon my aged young face, I place sparkles upon the creases of each line. In my profound loneliness I’ve found consolation in poems. Ive learned to see patternsContinue reading “Interpretations of translations”

How much will you take from me?

God, you have graciously given me so muchBut these past two years- I’ve averaged a broken a bone per year. I broke my ankle, it healed and then I broke my arm. It healed and then a stranger raped me. I have lost my voice so many times: When I found my voice again aContinue reading “How much will you take from me?”

You did not change me

I will not change for you. No. I will wear my dress no longer. No. I will not love softer nor harsher. No I will live this live with joy and love. You can harm my body but God always heals my soul. You can steal my body for a night. You can steal myContinue reading “You did not change me”

Still Sea

Still seas. The water broke in white waves at my feet. It pooled around my hands while coral and barnacles pricked my toes. Little hermits clung to the rocks with loyalty. The turbulence within me . . . the sea stilled by the skies and waves breaking upon me. Upon my breasts, upon my feet.Continue reading “Still Sea”

In the Space In between unloved

Rosalie wrote frantically,Conspicuously cognizant of her own unintelligible ciphers: She threw down her pain and rain”In the space in-between, he does not love me! In the space in between she cries, but he does not call! He does not show tenderness in his voice.”For if his sweet breath was heard so heavy and sultry. SheContinue reading “In the Space In between unloved”

Now I lay me down to sleep

Now I lay me down to sleep. I pray the lord my soul to keep. Now I lay me down to sleep. And if per chance I shan’t wake. To continue with my daily pace. Then find my friends for they are found-fragments of my soul. And each lost vagrant you should see. Let yourContinue reading “Now I lay me down to sleep”

Reroute

When is it okay to reroute? Are these dead ends or only roads not yet paved? When do we depart from our original destination and commitments? Afraid of the future-You hurdle towards the seas and cliffs. Bounding, leaping, crying weeping. Too prove you are awake. To prove you lived through another day. Scribbling frantic melodiesContinue reading “Reroute”

The Gas Prices Are to High

Verse 1 I’ve been runnin on empty The gas prices are too high I’ve been runnin on empty Inflation is on the rise Pre chorusIf I’m standing, I’m not lying If I’m walking, I’m not crawling on the groundBut lately I’ve been fallin down Chorus God will you help us get some sleep God willContinue reading “The Gas Prices Are to High”

Tough Love

Capo 7 G e C G eIntro Stop fucking quitting on yourselfPlease start investing in yourself, my love. Chorus I see more than you doAnd I know that in my soul that you will be just fine That you will be alright with time Stop looking to the past These worries soon shall pass SecondContinue reading “Tough Love”

Psalm 42 Conversations

Why my soul are you downcast? Why so quiet in me? I’m tired of loving and losing. I feel God doesn’t listen to me. Why my soul are you silent? I’ve been shouting so long. All I have now are whispered words. Why my soul are you quiet? I couldn’t take the clamour or theContinue reading “Psalm 42 Conversations”

But you went to heaven today

Capo 4 G e C e Chorus But went to heaven todayI miss you more every dayYour memory never will fade I would trade years of my life just to hold you again Verse 1 I wish I coule hold you again I wish I could just hold your handsVerse 2 I still see youContinue reading “But you went to heaven today”

Solo la música es fiel

Sólo la música es fiel. Todos me dejarán. Todos me abandonarán. Todavía la musica es fiel. Only the music is faithful Everyone may leave me And all I may abandon But music still is faithful. Solo queda la música Cuando todos me dejaron La música quedaráOnly the music remains.When everyone leaves. She stays. Llora queContinue reading “Solo la música es fiel”

There Are No Missing Pieces

You claim I’m giving pieces of myself. Like candy cut up for the crowds. You claim I’m just like everybody else. That I don’t know the value of myself. Nobody can take what I don’t give. I still at the core am who I am. These scars upon my soul will soon fast heal. IContinue reading “There Are No Missing Pieces”

Your Memory Resounds

Buildup introduction: 4 bars (em/ i) Your memory resoundsYour memory resoundsYour memory resoundsInter verse: Your light reverberates in this earthly space Your love resonates with all Your kindness echoes through the passageways Your goodness is heard through our global Halls We always feel you hear with us Though I’ve searched for you in shadows IContinue reading “Your Memory Resounds”

The boundless rain

Since I left my heart beats out of pace. What kind of sign is it that without you and with this vast distance, the doctors claim my heart beats with the rain?How funny! And how strange? The farther I am from home-The more increase my woes.And my heart is truly breaking I can show you,Continue reading “The boundless rain”

A note of disgrace

Disgrace be to God for every fiber of my body is sewn wrong.Every cell of mine, every tissue is sewn wrong. God!They say you sew us carefully in our mothers’ wombs? In the depths of the earth, did you sew me with hate? Did you see me with rage? Disgrace be to the geneticist forContinue reading “A note of disgrace”

Rotting Remnants. An obituary for the Orchid

Today the orchid drowned. Her roots so rotted that her glamor was concealed in the foul stench of death. Her leaves, which once were pompous have now wilted with the thieving hand of rest Her ivory flowers once so decorous giving joy and grace are now the rotting remnants of putrid and poor shape.

Blessings and Curses (Pandemic Poems) (Quarantine Compositions)

Blessings and CursesEvery fleeting moment contains within it a type of freedom and slavery.Yet, in these moments of isolation.The wind that rustles my hair consoles my frantic soul. Is that the not the ultimate test of God? how vast the lands, not roamed enough by foot….I now spend my waking hours seeking the sunCounting timeContinue reading “Blessings and Curses (Pandemic Poems) (Quarantine Compositions)”

I knew (Chronic Disorder Diagnosis: Ehlers Danlos Syndrome)

My family always dies early. For it’s in our genes. So when people ask me about when I will grow old, I have always said it wasn’t my desire. Some part of me always knew that my days were few. And so instead of running, I often stop to greet her, kiss death upon theContinue reading “I knew (Chronic Disorder Diagnosis: Ehlers Danlos Syndrome)”