Friends are fickle and Families start feuds. Crushes will crush you and men will harm you.Consoling words I told myself to soothe the tears and intrusive thoughts away. I’ve stood by people who watched me drown. And drowned before those people who now standby I’m more cautious now of my heart…. With all its openContinue reading “Morning Melancholy”
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You did not change me
I will not change for you. No. I will wear my dress no longer. No. I will not love softer nor harsher. No I will live this live with joy and love. You can harm my body but God always heals my soul. You can steal my body for a night. You can steal myContinue reading “You did not change me”
Shooting Star
My father said I am like a shooting star. I come quickly from afar. And with a flash of fire and a swish of sounds. I just as quickly leave. Colliding into peopleI crash into my dreams How much damage do I causeSpeeding through the seas? My father says I am a shooting star AndContinue reading “Shooting Star”
Reroute
When is it okay to reroute? Are these dead ends or only roads not yet paved? When do we depart from our original destination and commitments? Afraid of the future-You hurdle towards the seas and cliffs. Bounding, leaping, crying weeping. Too prove you are awake. To prove you lived through another day. Scribbling frantic melodiesContinue reading “Reroute”
But you went to heaven today
Capo 4 G e C e Chorus But went to heaven todayI miss you more every dayYour memory never will fade I would trade years of my life just to hold you again Verse 1 I wish I coule hold you again I wish I could just hold your handsVerse 2 I still see youContinue reading “But you went to heaven today”
There Are No Missing Pieces
You claim I’m giving pieces of myself. Like candy cut up for the crowds. You claim I’m just like everybody else. That I don’t know the value of myself. Nobody can take what I don’t give. I still at the core am who I am. These scars upon my soul will soon fast heal. IContinue reading “There Are No Missing Pieces”
Teach me how to sing again
Teach me how to sing again Teach me how to breathe again Teach me how to believe againTeach me how to beI used to cry every time that I sang Cause you weren’t by my side Why you had to go That only heaven knows Teach me how to bleed again teach me how toContinue reading “Teach me how to sing again”
Your Memory Resounds
Buildup introduction: 4 bars (em/ i) Your memory resoundsYour memory resoundsYour memory resoundsInter verse: Your light reverberates in this earthly space Your love resonates with all Your kindness echoes through the passageways Your goodness is heard through our global Halls We always feel you hear with us Though I’ve searched for you in shadows IContinue reading “Your Memory Resounds”
The boundless rain
Since I left my heart beats out of pace. What kind of sign is it that without you and with this vast distance, the doctors claim my heart beats with the rain?How funny! And how strange? The farther I am from home-The more increase my woes.And my heart is truly breaking I can show you,Continue reading “The boundless rain”
A note of disgrace
Disgrace be to God for every fiber of my body is sewn wrong.Every cell of mine, every tissue is sewn wrong. God!They say you sew us carefully in our mothers’ wombs? In the depths of the earth, did you sew me with hate? Did you see me with rage? Disgrace be to the geneticist forContinue reading “A note of disgrace”
The Consumption of the Sea
Shivering, she’s shaking. Someone save her from the sea. Cast her out from fathoms deep. Draw her from the tide, the green. Draw her from the foaming rage that seems so sweet and so serene until the sailor is unseen. Shushing sounds and silencing. She is silent in the sea. She is silent. She isContinue reading “The Consumption of the Sea”
I knew (Chronic Disorder Diagnosis: Ehlers Danlos Syndrome)
My family always dies early. For it’s in our genes. So when people ask me about when I will grow old, I have always said it wasn’t my desire. Some part of me always knew that my days were few. And so instead of running, I often stop to greet her, kiss death upon theContinue reading “I knew (Chronic Disorder Diagnosis: Ehlers Danlos Syndrome)”
The Seduction of the Sea
The foam rises like knives clapping against the rocks.They never fail to slap the shore. The higher they rise, the harder they fall. The white waves consume the earth. Swallowing souls and songs in the sea. She spares no one. No one left to breathe. And the further you swim into her arms, the furtherContinue reading “The Seduction of the Sea”
When I die someday
When I die someday. Sink me in the seas and sound for me a sonic elegy. Throw roses in the rivers to remember me and bury me in red. Let me rest my weary head within the oceans bed. Finally at peace am I, the child of the sea. And when you come to thinkContinue reading “When I die someday”
Until we meet again
My Only Desire Is To Weep. When You Are Far From Me. Without Your Love I Can Not Sleep, Nor Breathe, Nor Sing There Are So Many People With So Many Stories Under The Coffee Drenched Soil And Star Stricken Skies But Only The Shine Of The Seeds In Your Eyes Can Bring Me ToContinue reading “Until we meet again”
Those We Lose
Why are the images of those we lose so often blurred or vague? Why do we see the faces of unknown voyager’s and vagrant dreamwalkers in our slumber so much more? Those whom we love seem elusive mirages – always fleeting. Yet others we’ve never seen appear so clearly in our dreams….. May 13th 11pm
Would You Relive Your Life Exactly As It Is?
Would you relive your life if you could, with the wisdom you have now? Only with a single change in the texture, but not of the melody, nor sound. The only revision to the total composition would be the accents, but not the rhythms? With more intensity, but the same tonality. Only a modulation ofContinue reading “Would You Relive Your Life Exactly As It Is?”
The rain is stealing my words.
The rain is stealing my words.Where am I? Now with nothing but a quiet soul. Lost in the gardens, and the mud. Sheltered barely by the canopies. There’s nothing much but woes. Where are my friends and family? In other gardens across the sea, the lakes, the trees. I can not remember the times beforeContinue reading “The rain is stealing my words.”
You Taught To Be Colorful
You Taught Us To Be Colorful To Celebrate Life While It Is Here And Leave Glitter Trails Behind Us And Shake Out All Our Fears Failure Is Not An Option Fixedness The Goal You Taught Us To Be Stubborn To Have Faith In God, Not Gold You Taught Us To Be Loving To Always LendContinue reading “You Taught To Be Colorful”
Where Do We Go?
Where Do We Go, When It’s Not Safe To Stay? But To Leave Is Uncertain And A Worrisome Feat? Where do we Go? When It’s Time To Leave But The Goodbyes Aren’t Pretty Nor Are They Clean. Where Do We Go When We’ve Lost All Our Friends All Seems To Come To A Resolute End?Continue reading “Where Do We Go?”
There Was A Man In A Taxi Cab
There Was A Man In A Taxi Cab, Who Said Don’t Question Fate. Where God Put A Period A Mere Man Cannot Debate. And I Know . . . Tis Not Fair To Cry To Weep But, Oh, How Cold The Hand Of Death Upon This House That Keels! And Why All In December DidContinue reading “There Was A Man In A Taxi Cab”
Heart Won’t You Beat A Little Quieter?
Heart Won’t You Beat A Little Quieter? slow your dreadful pace. with your palpitating fury that falls heavy and lacks grace. heart won’t you beat a little quieter? this body can’t keep up with your riotous blazeThis faces grow pale as my heart races My body faints with thine fearsome chase.but it shan’t slow itsContinue reading “Heart Won’t You Beat A Little Quieter?”
I met an angel in the morn
I met an angel in the morning. At six o’clock she woke me. Twas twice the hours her spirit called. So I stayed I, in the chapel to greet the angel next to me. And sat I hence on the piano bench and plaid a psalm to please her. And at 9 o’clock my tearsContinue reading “I met an angel in the morn”
The Silent Singer 