Perhaps, thoughts of sadness do not exist in us, but outside of ourselves. It’s sometimes difficult for us to express our affectation. Emotions exist in many languages and expressive cultures. Yet, in this world we are survivors. Let us learn to love deeper. Perhaps, our sorrows and twisting paths only occur to amass our encountersContinue reading “Nunca se quita. Never Quit”
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The soundscapes of highway 183
Soundscapes of the stars as your sleeping in your car. There’s this concept in the humanities called reflexivity. It’s essentially the idea that our lived experiences can define our epistemologies and ontologies: So, what does it mean to sleep in a car? The rushing of the highway, the scratching of Velcro on windows and rustlingContinue reading “The soundscapes of highway 183”
Premonitions
Premonitions begin behind the eyes. A melody that sneaks onto your doorstep, that slipped in with the wind. Behind your eyes, it’s a feeling like you are about to cry. You eyes feel like wells, but you just don’t know why. This feeling that you know some misfortune is waiting to be foretold. It’s anContinue reading “Premonitions”
Morning Melancholy
Friends are fickle and Families start feuds. Crushes will crush you and men will harm you.Consoling words I told myself to soothe the tears and intrusive thoughts away. I’ve stood by people who watched me drown. And drowned before those people who now standby I’m more cautious now of my heart…. With all its openContinue reading “Morning Melancholy”
Momma Sunshine and her Son Starlight
She was going out with a firefighter, but he burned more than he put out. He said I’m done. She said, love, you said I was your one? Later on that day. She found out she got a baby on the way. So she calls up her momma and says what do I do. IContinue reading “Momma Sunshine and her Son Starlight”
A prayer for a blog
A Book Of Poems, Prayers, And PainTestimony Without Last name Elements Seen And HeardSome Days Feeling Much, And Some Days Numb.One Day let this blog be a book for The Broken-HeartedLet This Pain, These Petals, This Rain, thorns, lyrics and Quizzical Psalms Sing For Themselves.Nameless And Maybe Among these Scribbles And Stray Notes. You mayContinue reading “A prayer for a blog”
Too much
Too much. Yet never enough. Too hyper, but I drag myself out of bedToo kind, but not enough to stay. Too religious but not enough. Too much, too much too much to wait around for. Too much to stay for. Not kind enough. Yet I keep trying too much So I think I’ll stop talkingContinue reading “Too much”
Moths and Moonlight
I grabbed my two suitcases and two personal bags and at 3am, I headed to the airport to begin my new life in Texas. Just as I threw my bags in the backseat and my guitar to the side, a mariposa Bruxa or perhaps a polia scattered across my front porch and into the Uber.Continue reading “Moths and Moonlight”
O’hare
Some people think you can only have one home. But I think you can have many Places are fragments that become embodied in you. The physicality materiality and spirituality of places always remains in your blood. Its not just what you eat, but who you love and where you breathe that resides within you. YouContinue reading “O’hare”
In the Space In between unloved
Rosalie wrote frantically,Conspicuously cognizant of her own unintelligible ciphers: She threw down her pain and rain”In the space in-between, he does not love me! In the space in between she cries, but he does not call! He does not show tenderness in his voice.”For if his sweet breath was heard so heavy and sultry. SheContinue reading “In the Space In between unloved”
Leather, Lace, Plastic, and Pills
The balance between the waves as they thrash. The moments that the moon lit the waking hours The breathlessness pounding downThe dreams bottles in capsules of beads Tears tucked upon quilted flowers The glitter and litter of neuroses. The armor of amethystThe alchemy of absurdityAn odd and fractured kiss
Reroute
When is it okay to reroute? Are these dead ends or only roads not yet paved? When do we depart from our original destination and commitments? Afraid of the future-You hurdle towards the seas and cliffs. Bounding, leaping, crying weeping. Too prove you are awake. To prove you lived through another day. Scribbling frantic melodiesContinue reading “Reroute”
But you went to heaven today
Capo 4 G e C e Chorus But went to heaven todayI miss you more every dayYour memory never will fade I would trade years of my life just to hold you again Verse 1 I wish I coule hold you again I wish I could just hold your handsVerse 2 I still see youContinue reading “But you went to heaven today”
There Are No Missing Pieces
You claim I’m giving pieces of myself. Like candy cut up for the crowds. You claim I’m just like everybody else. That I don’t know the value of myself. Nobody can take what I don’t give. I still at the core am who I am. These scars upon my soul will soon fast heal. IContinue reading “There Are No Missing Pieces”
Your Memory Resounds
Buildup introduction: 4 bars (em/ i) Your memory resoundsYour memory resoundsYour memory resoundsInter verse: Your light reverberates in this earthly space Your love resonates with all Your kindness echoes through the passageways Your goodness is heard through our global Halls We always feel you hear with us Though I’ve searched for you in shadows IContinue reading “Your Memory Resounds”
The boundless rain
Since I left my heart beats out of pace. What kind of sign is it that without you and with this vast distance, the doctors claim my heart beats with the rain?How funny! And how strange? The farther I am from home-The more increase my woes.And my heart is truly breaking I can show you,Continue reading “The boundless rain”
Wind
You never desired the force which I blew. You never could handle my speed. The air that I cry, is a nuisance to you and so I left and I left and I howled and I cried. And I went on my way and I said my goodbyes. And with a fierceness I came, withContinue reading “Wind”
A note of disgrace
Disgrace be to God for every fiber of my body is sewn wrong.Every cell of mine, every tissue is sewn wrong. God!They say you sew us carefully in our mothers’ wombs? In the depths of the earth, did you sew me with hate? Did you see me with rage? Disgrace be to the geneticist forContinue reading “A note of disgrace”
The Consumption of the Sea
Shivering, she’s shaking. Someone save her from the sea. Cast her out from fathoms deep. Draw her from the tide, the green. Draw her from the foaming rage that seems so sweet and so serene until the sailor is unseen. Shushing sounds and silencing. She is silent in the sea. She is silent. She isContinue reading “The Consumption of the Sea”
Blessings and Curses (Pandemic Poems) (Quarantine Compositions)
Blessings and CursesEvery fleeting moment contains within it a type of freedom and slavery.Yet, in these moments of isolation.The wind that rustles my hair consoles my frantic soul. Is that the not the ultimate test of God? how vast the lands, not roamed enough by foot….I now spend my waking hours seeking the sunCounting timeContinue reading “Blessings and Curses (Pandemic Poems) (Quarantine Compositions)”
Glow up.
A month from now. I will grow up. Glow up. And you’ll remember this rosebud that you left in the dust who you tried to pluck, for now I am grown up. My pith has gained in width. My stems are longer now, my branches have more thorns. My sepals are not run out. AlthoughContinue reading “Glow up.”
I knew (Chronic Disorder Diagnosis: Ehlers Danlos Syndrome)
My family always dies early. For it’s in our genes. So when people ask me about when I will grow old, I have always said it wasn’t my desire. Some part of me always knew that my days were few. And so instead of running, I often stop to greet her, kiss death upon theContinue reading “I knew (Chronic Disorder Diagnosis: Ehlers Danlos Syndrome)”
The Seduction of the Sea
The foam rises like knives clapping against the rocks.They never fail to slap the shore. The higher they rise, the harder they fall. The white waves consume the earth. Swallowing souls and songs in the sea. She spares no one. No one left to breathe. And the further you swim into her arms, the furtherContinue reading “The Seduction of the Sea”
When I die someday
When I die someday. Sink me in the seas and sound for me a sonic elegy. Throw roses in the rivers to remember me and bury me in red. Let me rest my weary head within the oceans bed. Finally at peace am I, the child of the sea. And when you come to thinkContinue reading “When I die someday”
Nothingness
Your lips bite strongYour tongue pulls hard Your pulse beats fast Touching my calvesBut your lips taste like nothingness Excellent formBut lacking affect Your moist lips are consuming only nothingness What do my lips say?For I know that I kiss urgently Wishing for more ever ferventlyFor I seem love so desperatelyThat I seek foremost yourContinue reading “Nothingness”
Which Part Do You Love?
Which Part Do You Love? For Like Legion- A Thousand Demons A Hundred Angels E Pluribus Unum Many Are One. The Sadness, Fears The Joy, And Tears. You Never Fully Saw And Shall Never Truly See. For You Only Loved A Part Of Me.
I want the disney princess fairy shit
I want the Disney princess fairy shit: Monogamy and a faithful Legacy.Rather than invest in youthful flash which which soon does turn to leather I’ll gather my best and test the turbulent waters It is an act of bravery to risk love And an act of cowardice to never have loved enough the deep wellsContinue reading “I want the disney princess fairy shit”
Callous heart
Your heart is from caged and callousedIt’s rust at the seams It’s dirt and corroded Your brokenness it bleeds You say that you must protect your heart And you have let your let your courage departSo tell me how it feels to have a metal heart in a world that’s full of rain? I thinkContinue reading “Callous heart”
Rusted love
The birds must drink their mead to sing The grass only dances with the breezeThe river charts her path with the guidance of the seas The stars only shine when the moon rears her wreath But our love is corrodedNo more can it be The rust we created Between you and me
I Can Not Live Without The Music
I Can Not Live Without The Music I Can Not Live Without The Songs How Can You Say I Don’t Belong Here! Music, You Give Me The Strength To Carry On. I Swear That I Will Die Without It. I Can Not Abide Without It When I Could Not Sleep I Could Not Eat IContinue reading “I Can Not Live Without The Music”
The Silent Singer 